Im A Vampire. Youre A Mermaid?

Its 9:25 am and i feel fresh! Mum asked me to sleep but i just cant sleep back. Im hugging my stripes blankey since it reminds me of someone. I stff my ears with dad's handsfree and our song is playing. Been repeating it since 8:30. I miss you. Been looking at your picture in my phone for a thousand times already. Made me cry though. I just dont know why i never give up on you. I feel like taking care of you, changing you. Someone said i cant even change my self.. How can i change someone else's? I just dont know.

People look at me like im bad. Real bad. Like i just robbed a bank or killed the president. But if i do. Tak pandang dah. Terus kena tembak. Pft freak -.- Oh ill pay those credits back when i have money. Dont worry :)

My friends, cant seem to fix it. I think too much! Haih. Its really hard to be me. In my shoes. If its not your size, just wear it. Pft freak -.- The world, people. Feel like theyre against me. In a way. Maybe i should stop and lie down at the middle of an empty road. Just think. I know. No motive. But it helps sometimes. Did it at kampung, one time.

Im out of my first topic which i dont even know whats my first topic is. Stupid. I miss blogging. Bloggeyyyyyy! She listens to me, dnt understands me. But yet listens to me. Im crazy, am i? Maybe i dont know how to treat friends the right way. You should lend me a book "FRIENDSHIP FOR DUMMIES". I think ill be better. Hah Hah Hah. I dont like to be control by smeone. But if its the love ones, takpalah. Sometimes friends can be our therapist or cat? Where cats listen to us and just say "meow" and we'll go all "awwww, i love you too. Thank you rocky :)" But sometimes friends can turn out to be some freakphyschomaniac. They'll eat you alive. If that person is robert pattison takpa lah. Nak makan aku pun takpa. Hahahah! But yeah. It feels like a train hits you real hard if you have a friend who stab you from the back. Two faces bitches. Worst.

Life is not easy. Never been easy. If you look at me, im kind of in hell already. Hide the tears and pain deep inside. Smile and wave, smile and wave. Sometimes i love school. But school sucks. So what? I bet teachers think like that when they were teenagers. Maybe not all. Theyre just hiding it cause theyre teachers you know? My mum is a teacher. I know.

Ive been coughing since sahur. Haa, ada lah babi hidup kutuk aku. Hahahah. I found it funny. Im weird. I dont do kira bintang di awan when im emo. Right nab? Hahahah. Think im gonna go play harmonica now. Bye :)


your heartbeat is my music